BEHIND THE POEM : I DON'T LOVE YOU



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THOUGHTS OF THE POET

Both of us know
What you are doing…

This formed a crucial part of the first stanza.  Having a crush on someone mostly involves being physically attracted to them. Your mind gets detracted to the way they look, the different features of their face when they laugh, smile, and (at least, initially) their tensed look hovering over your priorities and not allowing you to concentrate as long as you have not found out the reason of their tension. Their slightest torment becomes a major earthquake for your state of equilibrium. Noticing all this just from a corner of an eye is something we ace pretty soon.

On the other hand, the crush also notices. It is baseless to expect them not to know what you are doing. That’s how the basic discovery begins.
The further stanzas, very conspicuously, state the various stages of crush and then multiple stages of physical and mental attraction leading to falling in love. It has been observed in most of the cases that if a male falls in love first, he tries all the tricks and all the possible “settings” (as the youth call) to make the other person feel the same way for him. When he receives a hint or a nod from the other side he proposes and the relationships begin. The whole process is a lot more complicated for mere words to decipher. However, the process becomes a lot more complicated if it is the girl who falls in love first. The girl falling in love involves a battle with the self, which is far more complicated than it is for a boy (or so is the popular word). Post that comes stages where the girl avoids and deletes her desires. But the emotions come back nagging each time and her actions show it. However, a girl rarely proposes. As sexist as this remark might sound, it is a well known fact. Quite often this is because girls are, usually, far more shy than boys.

Then there come a category of boys who, in high school, are the dartboard of humiliations, and with age become the soft bed to curl on. The girls who could kill to get a boyfriend on a football team when they were fifteen, often grow up to fall for boys who are more straightforward in life, who don’t try to look cool. The trouble, however, with the straightforward career oriented guys is that they are straightforward.

Like the last line depicts, however, the submissive-to-work boys also have a heart. It’s key just needs to be found. (Hey! Did I just give a hint on a future poem?)

INSPIRATION

Well, I won’t divulge much personal details here for the fact that I don’t want people to focus on the poem as a pin on my emotional map but as something they could point on their own emotional map. It so happens, and was brought to my attention by a classmate of mine, that there are two separate instances in my life when this has happened to me. Once when I was in my senior secondary class and another, last year, when I was preparing for university entrance exams.

I was inspired to write this piece by the latter. But I see so much parallelism in both the situations when the girl tried to drop hints about her love for me that I just feel that this is far more universal topic than I initially gave it credit for. I wrote the poem early in March 2015. There is no denying, this poem has gone out more internationally than I thought it would. My last poem TO DRAUPADI, being a more Indian poem than any I have ever written got most of the views and acclaims from my Indian friends. When I look into the stats of that poem, I find that the demography is mostly Indian and partially American. But this poem has been viewed in India, US, UK, New Zealand, Bulgaria, Kenya, Saudi Arabia, Singapore, UAE and a lot more countries surely indicating the popularity of this topic. One of my friends, who was rarely impressed by any of my previous works was actually so enticed that he couldn’t stop himself from praising the work. I’m glad it happened and I promise to keep working to your taste more.

EARLIER VERSION AND EDITING.

Well this poem has gone on for far more scrutiny than any of my past poems. It is a lyrical piece, a genre usually considered to be the toughest to write, and there are very many rules that you need to keep in mind while writing a Lyric.
Following are a few examples.

1.   You try your best to sit close to me
Talk to me find what I share with you
You drop hints about your love for me.
Come close, egg me into proposing you


2.   ‘Cause I don’t, just don’t love you
‘Cause it’s clear that I don’t love you.



3.   I might try to test your love for me
I might try to test the water



Thank you so much for being a part of my journey to the completion of my first internationally viewed poem published on this blog. Thank you for all the acclaim, encouragement and love you have given to the poem. Please continue showering your love.



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